letting go

today, nov 14, 2011 is the first day of regular classes of our hopefully last semester in college. i usually don't remember our first days of regular classes. well, not until today. but its not because it might be or will be the last of our first days but because today. . . we broke up. . . [insert troll face here]

me, bea and athena had coffee after class and bea prepared kleenex for me. haha. but unexpectedly, i didn't cry na. maybe because my eyes were already tired from crying and i've cried enough. athena's sister said na baka "uso" ang mga broken hearted this month. haha. katrina's sister also broke up with her bf at 2 am this the morning.

i guess i really made up my mind. though he was so convincing to try and fix what we had i still said no. maybe because im really tired na. hmmm. im sorry, maybe i was really selfish today, but its been so long since i have decided to do something for myself.

athena was pretty happy because me and bea added two stickers for her starbucks planner. haha. we're getting drunk with coffee. im happy they were there :3 heee heee. im sad today but i think ill be ok soon.


bea was sad also. haha. but not like-me-kind-of-sad. it was because her camera which she unexpectedly won when we were second year is getting old because the lens wont focus and the shots are blurry. hahaha. sign of aging.

hmmm. i think i've made the right choice. i feel better now, even lighter. . . the loads are off of me. im still sad. i never wanted to hurt him but if i didn't choose to be free then i would've hurt myself everyday. i just hope both of us will be ok.