good feeling, wont you stay with me just a little longer. .

seems like its just me and my sadness today. it really breaks my heart whenever i think about that someone. now, i just try my very best to just distance my self from that person. hoping that the distance would stop these feelings from ever growing.

anyway. id like to help myself forget by looking at these pretty photos of trees i took. they give me this positive feeling that some things are still beautiful despite the shit i feel inside and that things will get better. . . soon.

its been almost a month since i graduated from college. no school for me now. half of me feels happy about it and the other half feels sad and scared and confused about whats out there after school. its crazy.

i have been thinking bout what i want to do, who i want to be, what job to take. and there's just too much thinking and not doing anything. its frustrating that all i do is just think about things. i want something to happen already. and i cant just wait for things to happen. i need to move. i need to make a step. but im just too darn scared and then my mind goes "you need to think about it." so i would go and think again until another day passes and all i have done is think about it. gahhhh.

you see, i want to be a lot of things. i want to do a lot of things. and there's just one me.

but before all that, i still need to get my book finished and get my clearance cleared. after then i can think about how to get started on doing the things i want to do. i need to get this things done. -___-

moving on. these photos are just . . really beautiful. and id like to hold on to that feeling when your under a tree's shade and the grass is cold and you feel the wind on your face. .. it really is just a good feeling.

catching up :]

sooo. . . a lot has happened since the last time i posted. 

• i passed my thesis. and graduated :D
• my family is complete again, with my borther coming home for my graduation to my surprise, IT WAS THE BEST GIFT EVER.
• i already have my Diana Mini (will have one post dedicated for her soonest)
• summer art workshop started (and will be ending this week D:) and the kids are just so adorable. SPECIALLY JOAQUIN <3
• i have been eating a lot lately :] YAY.
• i have developed a love affair with my new pair of shoes. haha :))
• been taking a lot of new photos lately.

graduation with my labs :)

here's an artwork of my student. its a bird house :)

meet the "ang kulit-kulit" na si Joaquin <3

mini burgers from Flame It <3

my  shoes and i love it

had a date with Carren :)

i have never been very busy. its just that i get really tired after class and just sleep when i get home. and it's just now that i had the urge to visit this site again and it felt pretty lonely. its been more than a month since my last post and i didn't have a post for the month of April and i felt sad, really.

photos :)

its been a while since i posted photos here which were taken for the sake of photography. and so i am posting now. :] i came a bit early to school this morning. i cant seem to stay in one place so i started walking and sTROLLING around the undergraduate building looking for something to catch my attention and took photos of whatever. of course i cant help but take a photo of my feet :]

these two are my favorites for today. both are linear/rectilinear subjects. well, whatever. haha.

anyway, we only have more or less than three weeks 'til the thesis defense. i am starting to have butterflies just by thinking about it. -_- so i may have to double my time working and yes i still have time to blog :), to unwind. [echosera]

FOOD IS SO MEAN :|

blue berry kruffin :>

gyoza <3

pretzel :]

me and my friends have been eating since last week. some days, we don't even stay in once place and go from one place to another then another. aaahH. my friend bea said that food is so mean because we've been thinking about eating even on facebook, tell me about it :| i could really feel that stress is on its way. THESIS have been bugging me for the past few days now, even in my dreams -_- and deadlines are getting nearer everyday.

and another reason why food is so mean is because it stresses out that STRESS IS COMING O_O

on a lighter note, i really love being with my friends now, which have made me come to a point that i realize how better my life is being single. now, i really feel even better. :)

belated Happy Valentines Day to everyone :)

Instagram :)

i always have this "thing" for trees. i love trees. i've cried for one when i was about 8 or 9 yrs old. it was one beautiful fire tree and it broke my heart when i saw it being jigsawed by two heartless men. :( but they weren't really heartless, i just thought there were at that time. oh well.

and again my addiction on taking photos of my feet :D im lovin' it.

instagram. i've had this app for a long time now but was able to start using it just yesterday :| now im more driven to take photos because of this; i can cheat and make my crappy photos look good. [haha] well, the feel of using dslr in photography is still different. waay to different than this. but i don't have one, so i'll just settle for my sister's point and shoot and my phone for now. FOR NOW.

lovely morning on the beach :D

went to the beach early this morning. we left around 6:30 am. . . i told them yesterday that it's been awhile since we went to the beach and so my sister said that we'll go today :3 and we did! yay!

the sun was so bright but the wind was still cold. the camera wont take a good photo of the beach. because of so much brightness, the photo would turn out white. :|

THE WATER WAS SO COLD. I've had second thoughts on swimming yet the water was so inviting. so i took the plunge. :D there were very few people on the beach, though. i think there were just about 10 people on the water, including me, my sister, and my cousin.

we found three different star fish :D

there's another photo of my feet and one of my face which is being eaten by the sun. i like it on the beach but i only got into the water for a few minutes and just kept walking along the shore after. we just stayed there for about an hour or more and then went home :)

i love impulsive moments like this <3

my feet in 2011 :)

08.10.2011. Palawan. On the way to the underground river <3 with my over used slippers :)

12.19.2011. Ayala Terraces. Baaab Christmas Partey :D an Awesome day with Awesome people.

08.10.2011. Bohol. outside the house. Looking at and making the most of the beautiful cozy place :)

05.03.2011. Cebu. this was along northern Cebu, i just couldn't really remember where this was :( im standing on a huge rock covered with. . . im not really sure if that's an algae. but it was really slippery.

05.03.2011. Northern Cebu. i like it there. this was along the beach and the water was really good and i love the pebbles <3 my back hurts after picking some up. haha. but we weren't there to swim. my sister and i went with my brother for their pre-nup shoot to enjoy some road trip.

11.18.2011. at school. outside room 229 where the floor looks like an artwork in itself :)

05.03.2011. at Parian Ancestral House. the place was really nice. that nostalgic feeling in the smell of old things.

04.19.2011. at home. that time when you wanted to take a photo of yourself yet the camera wont take a good photo of it or was it because of your bad hair day or maybe you just really look ugly that day so you just take photos of whatever instead. :D

07.09.2011. Alcoy, Cebu. FASO acquaintance partey. the beach was really lovely <3

15.03.2011. Borbon, Cebu.

i was trying to clean my computer so i decided to clear some photos that were blurry and unnecessary and i was able to stumble upon the photos of my feet again and i thought of making a post about them. . . again. so here's the top 10 photos of my feet in the year that was :D

by the way. it's not arranged in an order :)

Day 1 :D

cant think of a perfect caption for each photo. zzzzZ. today was the first day of our annual Fine Arts Week. Started with a costume parade and all. went room to room to promote the Mindworks performance night which will be on friday. heeee. how i wish i could attend. i want to but thinking about him being there makes me want to stay at home :|

road trip love :D

11.26.2011
journey to northern Cebu = major road trip = love <3

this was the longest road trip we've ever had since we've had the van! we went to Medellin Cebu in search for the company where i could get the material i need for my thesis. though, we weren't able to visit the company since the owner wasn't there, i was able to get his contact number which was ok. heee :D i like it far though, i feel like i really need to work hard. haha.




i cant wait until i'll have my own car and drive. gaaahH!!! i just want to learn how to drive :(
these photos aside from my slippers were taken inside a moving car :3 so yeah. im getting the hang of it.

unplanned moments really are fun :)

i haven't been able to write something here for a while now. hehe. sorry, i've been lazy. SOOOO. i would just write about the last five days including today because those days are worth the post. ESPECIALLY THIS DAY.

last friday, me and bea went to ayala and played like kids at World of Fun and it was indeed very FUN. its been long since i have played like that!!! HAHA! plus, i got a card!!! yay! it was a very very fun day. though i forgot to take a photo of the place.

then saturday was a productive day, made something for an old friend since its going to be her son's christening on the sunday. i was pretty happy with what i have made and i was pretty sure blanche also was happy with it. i saw it in here face :)

sunday was a very very very tiring but awesome day. its been like decades since i saw my high school classmates, only a few of them though but still. we talked AGAIN about high school stuffs and laugh about it AGAIN. haha. I ATE A LOT. aaaand DRANK a lot also. glad i didn't got drunk. haha.

monday was "A VERY PRODUCTIVE DAY" really, it was. i went to school like a very good student. and since i only have one class in the morning, i have the whole afternoon for myself. i asked caryl if she could accompany me visit DOST for some inquiries about the material i'll be using for thesis and was i glad i got some information i could really use!!! yey! then i went to Hive to get my certification and since Ms. Christy was there i finally swallowed some guts and asked her to be my adviser for thesis and she said she was ok with it :D yaaay. i have yet to email her all the stuff i have for thesis.

AND FINALLY. today was a weird yet fun day. me and athena went to school thinking we were already 30 minutes late just to be surprised that we were the only two present. even the instructor wasn't there. so we had bruch in the canteen and then went out to ayala and had a date instead. heeee <3

spent an hour in fullybooked then walk around ayala then finally went to giligans and had some booze. we spent 3 hours there just chillin' and talking. THE WEATHER WAS REALLY NICE. athena was bit frustrated though because she didnt brought her wallet with her expecting she would go home after class. but then there was NO CLASS. haha. so we only had limited money because i, too, didn't bring extra money. so we tried to convince caryl to go to ayala but then she wont so we were just there thinking that we want to add more food but we don't have enough money. T____T

THEN, one of the waitress approached us bringing a platter with what looked like tacos. then athena said we didn't order anything. but then IT WAS REALLY FOR US!!! a man on a table next to ours ordered it FOR US. me and athena were so shocked that we didnt know what to do. HAHAHAHA so we just thanked the MAN, whoever he was, for it. i was hesitant to eat it but then we were just talking about how we wanted to add fooooood. HAHAHA. so we eventually ate it. FREE FOOD REALLY DOES TASTE GOOD!!!

we never expected that to happen. HAHA. unplanned moments really are fun!!!

a series of black and white

11.17.2011
nothing much today. its been a lazy day and i just took some photos.

i am taking a lot of photos of the awkward places in UP as much as i could. i will really, somehow, miss this place where i spent most of my time in four years. sorry for the crappy photos but i love them still. i just wish my brother would eventually replace his nikon D80 and donate it to me :3 only then will i have decent photos again. raaar.





yesterday was really AWESOME though. too bad i wasn't able to bring a camera. :( me and my friends ate a lot. we went to desert factory then bought crepe something. . .[i forgot what it was called] then eventually got some coffee because kat and caryl donated to athena's cause : the starbucks planner. it was fun. and i already bought a gift for my soon to be ina-anak.