They find it all, a different story.

my face and my attempt on being productive :|

i have been a bum since last week. productivity was out of my vocabulary. . .. until i read Athena's blog this morning. so i tried to move around today, looking for something to do. yet ended up here in front of the computer, again. but i was able to fix me bed, though. :P

i wanted to clean and organize files in my computer for the nth time. then i was able to go through my vain photos. yes i do have a folder full of photos of my [ehem. . ] pretty[?] face. hahaha. but this one below got my attention. its an old photo which was taken around November '11 and i really love it. :]

 

moving on, i can't really wait til sunday. my friend Athena will be coming over at my place to take photos of [ehem..] me. hee heee. and i really think its something to look forward to and be excited about since she is really good when it comes to this kind of stuff. 

you should visit her at Noting Athena.

anyway, i also spent some moment outside. tried to write down my thoughts to get my mind warmed up. and its true that writing once in a while is a good brain exercise. and its also good to have some time alone. but in my case, ive been having too much time alone and i really think i need to get out and be with people i miss.

good feeling, wont you stay with me just a little longer. .

seems like its just me and my sadness today. it really breaks my heart whenever i think about that someone. now, i just try my very best to just distance my self from that person. hoping that the distance would stop these feelings from ever growing.

anyway. id like to help myself forget by looking at these pretty photos of trees i took. they give me this positive feeling that some things are still beautiful despite the shit i feel inside and that things will get better. . . soon.

its been almost a month since i graduated from college. no school for me now. half of me feels happy about it and the other half feels sad and scared and confused about whats out there after school. its crazy.

i have been thinking bout what i want to do, who i want to be, what job to take. and there's just too much thinking and not doing anything. its frustrating that all i do is just think about things. i want something to happen already. and i cant just wait for things to happen. i need to move. i need to make a step. but im just too darn scared and then my mind goes "you need to think about it." so i would go and think again until another day passes and all i have done is think about it. gahhhh.

you see, i want to be a lot of things. i want to do a lot of things. and there's just one me.

but before all that, i still need to get my book finished and get my clearance cleared. after then i can think about how to get started on doing the things i want to do. i need to get this things done. -___-

moving on. these photos are just . . really beautiful. and id like to hold on to that feeling when your under a tree's shade and the grass is cold and you feel the wind on your face. .. it really is just a good feeling.

Daughter - Youth

i just love this song. it is just so beautiful to me. i couldn't really explain what i feel about it, but it makes me feel sad and calm, while but my heart beats like crazy.

i have been just hanging around youtube these days and just kept listening to music. it has been my way of spending time with myself for a while now and its been pretty good, actually.

catching up :]

sooo. . . a lot has happened since the last time i posted. 

• i passed my thesis. and graduated :D
• my family is complete again, with my borther coming home for my graduation to my surprise, IT WAS THE BEST GIFT EVER.
• i already have my Diana Mini (will have one post dedicated for her soonest)
• summer art workshop started (and will be ending this week D:) and the kids are just so adorable. SPECIALLY JOAQUIN <3
• i have been eating a lot lately :] YAY.
• i have developed a love affair with my new pair of shoes. haha :))
• been taking a lot of new photos lately.

graduation with my labs :)

here's an artwork of my student. its a bird house :)

meet the "ang kulit-kulit" na si Joaquin <3

mini burgers from Flame It <3

my  shoes and i love it

had a date with Carren :)

i have never been very busy. its just that i get really tired after class and just sleep when i get home. and it's just now that i had the urge to visit this site again and it felt pretty lonely. its been more than a month since my last post and i didn't have a post for the month of April and i felt sad, really.