endings and beginnings | part ii

the last post was all about what i am thankful for in the year that was. it took me so long to finally make this second post. anyway, there were a few highlights in 2011 that i wasn't able to share. there was. . .

• my brother's wedding. yes. now we have an additional sister and an extended family :)

• i am no longer a teenager. yes. im 20 and i've been in this world for 2 decades now :D

• and. . . my first heartbreak. it was, somehow, a bit self inflicted though.

so now, there's a few things i need to improve on myself. i will try to be a better me than i was.

so this 2012. i want to. . .

GAIN SOME WEIGHT. yeah. i really want to gain some weight. i need to EAT MORE, MORE, and MORE.

WORRY LESS AND HAVE FUN. i need to stop worrying over really small stuffs and start enjoying life. i don't really have fun to the "highest level" because i worry and i have this "what if's" in mind. I should minimize that and start LIVING.

LISTEN TO MUSIC. for there is always music despite everything. even if your world crashes. the radio will still sing you a song. especially the songs YOU DONT WANT TO LISTEN TO. HAHAHA. anyway, music has been always one of my greatest way to escape reality.

READ MORE. yes. i need to read more. i have found my love for fiction now. and i will have my list of the books i want to read. :D im happy that i have found interest in reading for i didn't have any for it since i got into college. he he. i wish people gave me books when i was still younger than i am now.

i wanted to do the project 365. one photo a day. but errr. i don't have my own camera. but i will try. I WILL. i love taking photos as much as i like talking. haha. its like immortalizing a memory. you can always look back on it and remember. :)

TAKE A BREAK AND TRAVEL. after graduation i will really take some break. even if it's just in Tagaytay. I WILL TAKE IT. haha. i am really looking forward to travel abroad with my family this summer. i am still not sure where but i hope we really could. it will be my first trip out of the country. if ever. and if by July 2012, i still don't have a job here. I WILL TAKE A RISK in SINGAPORE :D

TRY NEW THINGS. i would really love to try and learn something new this year. like own and learn how to play a ukelele :D or learn how to drive. or own a puppy, if only it doesn't grow T.T. or go to manila on my own. haaay. if only my parents would allow. Zzz. . .

i am always scared to make mistakes. but because i'm scared, i make mistakes. haha. ow the irony of it all. the thing about mistakes is that you learn. you will always learn from it. always. unless your stupid or in denial of your mistake. only then will you not learn. and the thing about not accepting or admitting mistakes. . . is that you can never move on. neverrrr.

SPEND TIME WITH THOSE WHO REALLY MATTER. of course there's my family and my friends. but there is someone i would really love to spend my time with; that is. . . MYSELF. yesss. one thing that i learned from 2011 is that its important to spend time alone. even if you just stare at an empty space. haha. it makes you think and reflect about certain things. it makes you know yourself better.

i guess that's it. but one things for sure. EVERYTHING'S GOING TO BE OK. maybe not to today or tomorrow, or the day after tomorrow. but eventually. if its not ok, then it's not yet over. i have my hopes up for 2012.

and so i sign off with this song by The Naked and Famous, Young Blood because im young and lovin' it. its a really nice song to end this nice post :D haha.

endings and beginnings | part i

i have been thinking about a lot of things lately. my life was always been a life of mere existence. living each day as if flowing together with the wind. it was just in November that i really decided to live my life [sort of]. i took one of the biggest and hardest step ever. it was one heart breaking, brain draining and life changing decision i have made so far. and now, all i know is that the only long term relationship i am guaranteed of is. . . what i have with myself. HAHA.

Quoted: "there are far better things ahead than any we leave behind." and i am really looking forward for what 2012 has to offer. i just hope it doesn't get the best of me. haha. anyway, in 2011, i was thankful for. . .

my family. because they're always there. ALWAYS :)

these AWESOME PEOPLE. because they've made 2011 AWESOME.

COFFEE. for being with me through cramming days and sleepless nights :)

these guys. who always take my breath away with laughter :D

THE NATIONAL. because of their awesome music. love :">

and Internet. YES. because you've been always awesome.

AND for people who have been with me as companions. for those who made me laugh and smile. for those who made my day. for those who ruined it. duh. for those who made me cry. for those who loved me. for those who gave me hope. for those who inspired me. . . for the good food, good music, breathe taking laughs, beautiful sunsets, contagious smiles, cramming days, creeping in the attic [you know who you are :D] . . . AND MORE. haha. i couldn't list them all.

maybe 2011 wasn't the best year i've had but it was at its best. :)