good feeling, wont you stay with me just a little longer. .

seems like its just me and my sadness today. it really breaks my heart whenever i think about that someone. now, i just try my very best to just distance my self from that person. hoping that the distance would stop these feelings from ever growing.

anyway. id like to help myself forget by looking at these pretty photos of trees i took. they give me this positive feeling that some things are still beautiful despite the shit i feel inside and that things will get better. . . soon.

its been almost a month since i graduated from college. no school for me now. half of me feels happy about it and the other half feels sad and scared and confused about whats out there after school. its crazy.

i have been thinking bout what i want to do, who i want to be, what job to take. and there's just too much thinking and not doing anything. its frustrating that all i do is just think about things. i want something to happen already. and i cant just wait for things to happen. i need to move. i need to make a step. but im just too darn scared and then my mind goes "you need to think about it." so i would go and think again until another day passes and all i have done is think about it. gahhhh.

you see, i want to be a lot of things. i want to do a lot of things. and there's just one me.

but before all that, i still need to get my book finished and get my clearance cleared. after then i can think about how to get started on doing the things i want to do. i need to get this things done. -___-

moving on. these photos are just . . really beautiful. and id like to hold on to that feeling when your under a tree's shade and the grass is cold and you feel the wind on your face. .. it really is just a good feeling.