when i was young. . .

everything was beautiful and nothing hurt. . . except for the occasional cuts and bruises i get from running fast, climbing trees, from playing and exploring. i just miss childhood so much.

i think this picture was taken in Family Park and i really think i was in grade 2.

last night, when i was, sort of, writing about my life philosophy for my philo class, me and a friend talked about how lucky we were to have a gadget free childhood. how we miss having summer vacation that felt like years and the pain it gave to know that it's over. there's a lot of things i miss in childhood.

i miss climbing trees and eating the fruits on top of it and call on the people that were passing by and giggle when that person tries to find who calls. >:]

i miss running around the grassy field and just letting myself to fall intentionally and roll on the grass and laugh at the pain i felt and then scratch the itch it gave and sometimes look for and catch some grasshoppers :)

i miss hanging and swinging while i hold on a broken coconut leaf.

i miss biking all day and not feel the heat of the sun.

i miss playing on that hill of sand, climbing to the top and letting my self slide while having a piece of plywood on my bottom and it was one of the best feeling ever!!!

i miss cooking all i could see and i would sneak inside our house to get some salt, sugar and rice and i also miss the smell of boiling "sagbot" and saying "hmmm, it so good" when it actually looks like shit. hahahaha.

i miss playing "tinda-tinda" and feel like im so rich and i have a lot of money when all i have, really, are leaves i got from the atis tree.

i miss wandering in those places i thought that has never been discovered but truth is, it was just a normal place.

i miss playing beside that huge C1-30 by the golf course and spend the whole afternoon looking for a four-leaf-clover or just lying under the shade of that huge airplane and look at the sky and fall a sleep once in a while.

i miss sneaking inside the golf course and let the guard chase after me and my friends (my dose of adrenaline rush) and when there were no guards we will play in the sand and on the grass.

i miss collecting rocks thinking that they were different and unique from each other but then they all look the same, really.

i miss believing that i have the power of the wind because the wind would come and blew harder whenever i whistle. hahaha. then i would stay outside our house waiting for a message the wind would send but it never came.

i miss keeping found objects and my mother would often scold me for keeping trash but to me they were treasures.

i miss playing tumbang preso, the slipper game, 'buwan-buwan", patentero, shampoo-shake, Dr. wakwak (i dont know who invented this but it's ridiculously fun) ice-water, lupa-langit, hide and seek, dakop-dakop, shatong, finding things, dampa, pulis-dunggab, bahaw-bahaw, cards and pogs and all those fun games we had. it was fun and i miss it.

but as much as i want to escape the future and go back to the past, i just cant miss the present. because i don't know what's going to happen. i just have to be there to see it.